Fear had always been a dominant factor in my life. It was like a built-in shut-off mechanism in my brain that stopped me from enjoying life and connecting with people. I didn’t want to live like this, but it was the only way I knew how to live. I had been in an out of therapy for anxiety since I was 12 years old and found no relief until I started drinking. I don’t think my therapist believed me that this was crippling my life or realized how much my fear guided my decision-making.